Thursday, July 21, 2011

the holy entirety



i fear and treasure those days
that are filled with the presence of the holy entirety
most of all
i can feel it enveloping
wrapping
enlarging
and leaving me behind
within a moment of waking
in the soft voices
that ask me kindly
and knowingly
to be all or nothing
of what i have become
and knowing that so much of what i am has been stolen or borrowed
ownership forgotten
source material buried in the passage of time
the unforgiving erasure of time
the first defence
anxiety
i am left wondering what will be left of me
when the stripping bare
is completed and yet
i sense
in that sense
beyond all senses
that it is right and good
to allow for the possibility
that no matter the suffering
God knows
i am good with that
good at that
good for that



21 comments:

Jinksy said...

The last three lines got me...

acornmoon said...

I agree with Jinksy about the last three lines.

I love that music!

erin said...

yup,

that no matter the suffering
God knows
i am good with that
good at that
good for that


just to see them again.

xo
erin

Reya Mellicker said...

Are you ok? I hope you're ok. I love you, Steven.

ellen abbott said...

Yes, all of that. Stripped bare we are at our core part of the all that is.

steven said...

jinksy - it's part of a fiendish plan of mine to grab readers with the last three lines of everyhting i write. that way they can forget the other writing! steven

steven said...

hello valerie! it's part of a larger piece by keith jarrett that is equally stunning and challenging all at the same time. steven

steven said...

erin - we all choose our forms of suffering and then in my own experience, suffering sometimes reaches over and chooses us. because there are qualitites of suffering, it's not always a bad thing! steven

steven said...

reya thanks, i'm very ok. i'm allowing some cleanup to be done on my own cosmology. you know how that is. it's unsettling, then distracting, then crazy-making and then all good!!! steven

steven said...

dat's right ellen!! steven

Pauline said...

what makes you feel presence of the holy entirety leaves you behind?

steven said...

pauline i find that revelations, awareness of wholes are easily lost through the distractions of
"the soft voices
that ask me kindly
and knowingly
to be all or nothing
of what i have become"
steven

The Weaver of Grass said...

Agree about the last three lines Steven - and the radiance is beautiful

steven said...

i'm glad you enjoyed your visit weaver! steven

Tess Kincaid said...

Yes, God knows. x

steven said...

tess that's what i know. steven

Lizzy Frizzfrock said...

Great music. Like everyone else I love the last 3 lines, but I also am drawn to the words "i am left wondering what will be left of me when the stripping bare is completed and yet i sense..." and on to the end. Every day I am amazed at your writing and your abilities as a wordsmith.

Ruth said...

You are always enough.

steven said...

thankyou lizzy. in my own sense i have a very long way to go but your words are generous and supportive and make the way a little smoother! steven

steven said...

hi ruth! i've heard that somewhere else!!! steven

OceanoAzul.Sonhos said...

steven, strong words for a imposing music. Very good.

oa.s