how to get here from there

there are times

when i catch myself

swinging inside this

heaven on earth

and it's all

too much to bear

let alone . . . to understand

and so i've found

that moving inside

the knowing

and looking at it

like it's a signpost

can be more revealing . . .

i get a point of reference -

sometimes

i even think i have

a clearer sense

of the point

of this place i call home

perhaps that's arrogant

perhaps it makes assumptions

i really shouldn't

perhaps it's about convincing

or reassuring myself

of a purpose

so far removed from my knowing

that the words and pictures

point in the wrong direction

i sometimes feel

what is beneath all of this

and wonder