managing the morning's beginning

one piece of my life that i take care of is the morning 'cause it's usually so short through the week and i want it to be as good as i can make it and there's a lot of sensory pieces that make or break a morning which makes it a fragile time........ music - well some people'd say i should play quiet soft music to start my day off positively and kindly and with consideration, but that doesn't always work and so i can just as easily find myself messing with music ranging from king crimson at one end of the spectrum to blast me into the loud cerebral world i sometimes belong in and then other times to vetiver at the other end for its careful carelessness . . . . . . . . . . . . . it’s hard to plan ahead for what kind of music will begin the beginning of my day.
the weekends are the best because the long waves of me can stretch out more fully where in the week i have to be very compressed. i figure on a weekday i have about an hour or less from waking and leaving the bed, to shower and cleanup and dress and get my stuff for school and if i'm biking, time to psyche myself for the ride and then also the e-mail thingy which sees me surf from the bbc news http://news.bbc.co.uk/ to know about the world from an english perspective, to “dgm live” (which you can find at http://www.dgmlive.com/) to know about my favourite part of the music world from an english perspective, to sid smith's blog which is over at http://sidsmith.blogspot.com/ to know about sid and all that he sees and knows, to “lost at e minor” to know about the creative world - well fashion, art, music from an australian perspective http://www.lostateminor.com/. i like to pay a daily visit to electronic dance music group underworld's homepage http://www.underworldlive.com/index/home.html and not only because i think they're the most wickedgood dance band in the world but also 'cause every day they link to an artist or a musician who i can learn about and then i kind of float around audio blogs and see what i can see.
then there's food - i usually settle for toast or bagels but in my heart i'd rather make a really lovely breakfast every day and i guess that's a dream that's way out there 'cause it's never happened. . . . . . . . well no that’s not true actually, i’ve made a few but i’d like one more often than not . . . . . it's not a lot important in the big scheme of things . . . . . . but it'd sure be nice to have tasty yummies every day . . . . ha greedy me . . . . and then there's picking clothes that suit the day and a coffee mug that suits my mood or the one i'm, creating: here’s my coffee mug collection -

all of these were handmade at the blackdog pottery in kingston whih i get to about every two years (http://www.blackdogpottery.ca/) well, all except the blueglass one which i bought at starbucks - i like the blueglass one lots but it has starbucks actually written on it and that’s not a crime or anything but it makes the process one where i have to look to be sure to only drink out of the none written on side!!! not that i have any special enmity towards starbucks - i’ll drink their coffee perhaps half a dozen times a year and my oldest boy makes a living as a barista for them so i really ought to be kinder.
talking in the morning . . . . i know people i can wake up to or with . . . . .i can talk with them laugh with them grog and blob and shuffle aimlessly ‘round with them but there are others who i just want to stay in their own space . . . . don’t even come near me, let alone talk to me.......... harsh, selfish - yeah maybe, probably . . . . but honestly as i get older i find it’s harder and harder to hide or cover for the little unnecessary silliness and irritations and intrusions of daily life!!! there, i’ve said it!!!
there's so much detail to allowing the morning to roll out and away . . . . . . and why? i wonder if i'd be less crazy if i just didn't care about any of this . . . . . . . or if i'm not as crazy as i might be because i do care about all of this . . . . . . . . .