Thursday, July 21, 2011

the holy entirety



i fear and treasure those days
that are filled with the presence of the holy entirety
most of all
i can feel it enveloping
wrapping
enlarging
and leaving me behind
within a moment of waking
in the soft voices
that ask me kindly
and knowingly
to be all or nothing
of what i have become
and knowing that so much of what i am has been stolen or borrowed
ownership forgotten
source material buried in the passage of time
the unforgiving erasure of time
the first defence
anxiety
i am left wondering what will be left of me
when the stripping bare
is completed and yet
i sense
in that sense
beyond all senses
that it is right and good
to allow for the possibility
that no matter the suffering
God knows
i am good with that
good at that
good for that



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21 comments:

  1. JinksyJuly 21, 2011 at 3:04 AM

    The last three lines got me...

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  2. AcornmoonJuly 21, 2011 at 4:35 AM

    I agree with Jinksy about the last three lines.

    I love that music!

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  3. erinJuly 21, 2011 at 7:48 AM

    yup,

    that no matter the suffering
    God knows
    i am good with that
    good at that
    good for that

    just to see them again.

    xo
    erin

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  4. Reya MellickerJuly 21, 2011 at 9:51 AM

    Are you ok? I hope you're ok. I love you, Steven.

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  5. ellen abbottJuly 21, 2011 at 10:01 AM

    Yes, all of that. Stripped bare we are at our core part of the all that is.

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  6. stevenJuly 21, 2011 at 12:11 PM

    jinksy - it's part of a fiendish plan of mine to grab readers with the last three lines of everyhting i write. that way they can forget the other writing! steven

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  7. stevenJuly 21, 2011 at 12:12 PM

    hello valerie! it's part of a larger piece by keith jarrett that is equally stunning and challenging all at the same time. steven

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  8. stevenJuly 21, 2011 at 12:14 PM

    erin - we all choose our forms of suffering and then in my own experience, suffering sometimes reaches over and chooses us. because there are qualitites of suffering, it's not always a bad thing! steven

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  9. stevenJuly 21, 2011 at 12:16 PM

    reya thanks, i'm very ok. i'm allowing some cleanup to be done on my own cosmology. you know how that is. it's unsettling, then distracting, then crazy-making and then all good!!! steven

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  10. stevenJuly 21, 2011 at 12:17 PM

    dat's right ellen!! steven

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  11. PaulineJuly 21, 2011 at 12:36 PM

    what makes you feel presence of the holy entirety leaves you behind?

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  12. stevenJuly 21, 2011 at 1:05 PM

    pauline i find that revelations, awareness of wholes are easily lost through the distractions of
    "the soft voices
    that ask me kindly
    and knowingly
    to be all or nothing
    of what i have become"
    steven

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  13. The Weaver of GrassJuly 21, 2011 at 1:50 PM

    Agree about the last three lines Steven - and the radiance is beautiful

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  14. stevenJuly 21, 2011 at 2:37 PM

    i'm glad you enjoyed your visit weaver! steven

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  15. Tess KincaidJuly 21, 2011 at 4:35 PM

    Yes, God knows. x

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  16. stevenJuly 21, 2011 at 5:06 PM

    tess that's what i know. steven

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  17. Cheryl CatoJuly 22, 2011 at 12:17 AM

    Great music. Like everyone else I love the last 3 lines, but I also am drawn to the words "i am left wondering what will be left of me when the stripping bare is completed and yet i sense..." and on to the end. Every day I am amazed at your writing and your abilities as a wordsmith.

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  18. RuthJuly 22, 2011 at 5:01 AM

    You are always enough.

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  19. stevenJuly 22, 2011 at 7:09 AM

    thankyou lizzy. in my own sense i have a very long way to go but your words are generous and supportive and make the way a little smoother! steven

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  20. stevenJuly 22, 2011 at 7:09 AM

    hi ruth! i've heard that somewhere else!!! steven

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  21. OceanoAzul.SonhosJuly 23, 2011 at 5:25 AM

    steven, strong words for a imposing music. Very good.

    oa.s

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